Inarina's

back to hectic shedule again. after so long of not having a proper physical training, today was the worst. only 1 round, its like running 10 rounds, omg. panting so hard like a dog. stretch here stretch there.argh, now muscle cramps all over =) been indulging myself in online shopping, thnx to dearie for bringing me into that sinful addiction. yes, got soo addictive, cant stop already. however, i really got to stop before my acc goes empty again. haha.bought something for mum too, for mother's day. i've got nothing to update actually =)


i was wondering, why has it always got to be the wriong person!!?? fair??? obviously,NOT!!

labour day today,public holiday it is but dad still went out for work. model husband, modal father thats what he told me he is. haha. well, i just discovered quite a huge sum of money in my acc, i don't know where it came from,seriously. a month ago, i was left with only 2 digits in my account. i was shocked of course, but people say, rezeki jangdan ditolak.haha. i got to make sure that i spend the money wisely. i have spent some of it on my practicals and ftt and that already cost me a bomb! practical starts in 2 weeks time, ftt in 2 months time. i only can spend this much on my driving liscence, the rest will be mum's and dad's turn, they are quite reluctant actually, but i trully understand. =) new sets of make-up. initially, i thought of going for Loreal, but the moment i reached, i stopped at the Za's booth and picked them up, for i thought that Loreal would be a lilttle bit more expensive and guess what, when i paid, i saw the Loreal make-up set goes at $39.90 which its usual price would be over $50. arggh! again i made a huge mistake. last time i bought the wrong tone for my Maybeline and now i am cheated. wah piang ehh. ok, i spent enough ithink. 

school tomorrow, test tomorrow and i've not finished revising for it. 

yeah, i passed my BTT, alhamudillah, my trial tests were all worth while =) waiting  for FTT and practicals to commence. ok, getting sleepy already. tomorrow is going to be a very long day, and i' m craving for vanilla ice-blended and oreo cheescake, going to get it during lunch time tomorrow with the girls..yum yum.. =)

i' ll helping in the Children's season held at the Singapore museum, to help with the kids there. the event will be for a month or so during the june holidays. i' ll be starting on this coming thursday, the first day of the event. it sounded fun and interesting and upon completing, we' ll be getting a cert, so why not i grab this opportunity right, it will helps a lot in the future. free t-shirt some more. wooaahh.

yesterday, when were having early childhood development lesson, talking about infants from 0-3 months old. i tell you, it was hell interesting. videos on babies and etc. damn fun. guess what, we were discussing on that topic when we suddenly heard baby cries outside our window. it was not too loud but loud enough to be heard by some of us. even my teacher heard it and she was already freaking out. we heard it twice, tried looking out at the window but there were nothing,more ever, it was raining. before that we already heard a puppy's voice,sounded so sad and all. it was scary,i tell you. we were told that before our classroom is renovated, it was actually a rubbish store and once, a teacher died in there. we don't know how true the story was. but definitely, something is not right. behind our classroom is actually a tiny forest, so i guess its really scary after all. haha. staying in the classroom for 6 hours everyday makes us sleepy and shivering like hell, so cold. but must be grateful lah, the classrooms upstairs are not air-conditioned,some even claimed that they are dying of heat stroke.haha.siow.

ok ok. trial test again tomorrow, this time with the aunt and monday will be my btt. tuesday will be going over the singapore museum for some briefing. very tight schedule. ok bye

hello all.. besides lectures alone, we have presentations and group activities,lots of them actually. today, i was 15 minutes late for my first lecture, thought that going out with dad would be way much earlier of me,but we ended up getting stucked in the massive traffic jams. gosh, it will be the last time that i will go together with dad. earlier today, we had dance class, yes, we practically dance to the songs. it was hilarious,of course seeing all those giants jumping up and down and turning about.haha. we also did a role play on how the customs and cultures of each races were like in the past. i acted out as a malay girl who has a chinese boyfriend. the scene took place whereby my boyfriend and me went to see my parents to discuss about our marriage,so that dad says that he have one condition for the guy, which was of course, to go for circumsize, i mean of all those cultures, i had no idea why we chose on that. the class literally broke out into laughter, even i couldn't control myself on stage. but, i thought it was amazing, i never did something so daring before in my life,seriously.

as we were told, before this no ones give a damn about early childhood educators. they don't see our importance in building up the foundations for the children before the practically continue i their primary school. i tell you, with no preparations made,especially when their are still in pre-school, they will eventually get culture shocks when they enters primary school. early childhood educators are not nannies!! no, we are not. we belief that all teacher plays an important role in developing the children,and that includes the early childhood educators! yeah babe..

let the children smile,
let your worries fly...

school has been great,so far. i' m happy to be there =)  i only mix with these two girls from my class;shan and shikin. i don't know why but it seems that we share the same interest. despite shikin being 2 years older than us, we still share the same opinion most of time. actually, we were the quiet ones. we did not go to the canteen during recess but instead, went over to junction 8 to get Mcdonalds. we shared the same CCAs. community service club, cooking club and SAA. we decided to joined that external cca to form up a team for tug of war. it was unexpected for me to  join. i was reluctant initially, but after much considerations, looking at the oh-so-hot-muscular coach, we decided to join. they actually convinced and reassured us that we'll have a good stamina and sexy body at the end of the year. hahaha. as you know, i' m easily influenced, you see so why not i give it a try. yes, my mum practically laughed at me and asked me to dream on, she has never been such a supportive mum, shes always condenming me on whatever i do, just to bad for me =( its quite pressuring to be in ITE actually, i thought think is much more simpler there, but apparently, it wasn't. like it or not, i' m already in ITE and i just have to make the best out of it.

its on the 1st week of school and stress is already hitting,seriously. no laying backs,or any procrastination, you do that, you will be left far behind,trust me. we' ve started to do creation of poems on kids, case studying and tomorrow, debate!! its hell ok. right now,  i' m already cracking my brain finding useful informations to prepare myself for tomorrow's debate. apparently, most of the classmates are really bright students,really really bright. they speak fabulous english, which is definitely fay way better than mine,and this is so scary. what not, some of them were from Mi, convent sch and some high schools. i don't understand what are they doing here, they are just over shadowing me.haha. well, i' ll be off. trial test tomorrow!

today, we got the opportunity to see our class adviser and our classroom. classroom is at first level,way further and isolated then the other classrooms. our classroom is like a childcare centre ok, shoes off before entering,colourful walls, toys, so cosy and all,seriously. the room practically, made us more enthuasiastic to start lesson tomorrow. lesson starts as early and 8am and ends at 3pm, not that bad after all. today's program was such a bore. orientation yet again, this time telematch at the field, under the scorching hot sun and i felt like passing out. bridge leaders there were kind of hot,especially the guys. perceptions are starting to change, and i bet that is a good sign after all, Alhamdulillah. till here, dead beat and all sticky after the long hours under the sun and cramped into the amphiteater. 

recap time.

speech day was fine. i was dragged to come much early and hell, we explored the whole school and went up to our former class at the 4th level. looking in through the glass panes, made me so emotional,really. catching up with the teachers. among all the teacher, only Mdm Au hugged us, i was shocked initially,but after that, i love her man.haha. my enemy is still there,forever muke-basi.no goaty but there was Azlan;nothing so interesting about him. the speech was so draggy. after which, headed down to t3 with fuz to have popeyes. catching up with the long-lost partner in crime =) aunt and uncle came by and fetched us home.

saturday family outing was fun. family reunion was the best. popeyes again! but then, i realized i didn't comunicate much with the perfect four, i was having a very bad toothache, you see. sorry girls. changi village for late supper. it was a blast, definitely.

now, lets talk about my first day in school. had Ridhwan accompanying me to school.made a few new friends,but i' m still shy.heh. was surprised to know there are actually guys taking my course.haha. 4 of them actually. they either no nothing about this course or they really want to be pre-school teacher.haha.one of them  is Elias. yes, thats his name.haha.i' m usually with this girl,shan. its good to know that our  classroom is fully air-conditioned. orientation up till tomorrow, i hate orientations. well, i just hope to go through this very smoothly. even the 18 pointers is in ITE,taking early childhood =)

pictures time!

arghh. i'm in real pain right now. i just discovered a growing wisdom tooth in my mouth. i can't even chew my food properly especially solid foods. dad asked to get it extracted but, the thought of going to the denstist, the jab, getting is extracted using what? i can't imagine what are they going to use. so, i'm keeping this wisdom tooth for as long as i can bear with the pain. if it gets really bad, i'm left with no choice but to get rid of it. bah. 

speech day coming up later in the evening. fuz applied for a day off just to accompany me.haha, and to actually do some cathing up with the teachers. parents will be coming over too. in the later part, we plan to go down to t3 to have popeye. have been craving for popeye since last wk. this will be the last weekends before school starts. ahhh. right, i got to be sleeping, dad is going to bring me and mum to have breakfast at Mc donalds later in the moring.shiookk..k bye

how time really flies. school in 4 days time. i can't describe my feeling cause i' m still uncertain about it. i hope on my first day, all my perceptions about ITE will change. after all, all i need is some assurance, thats all. well, last few days of my holidays, i just need to rejuvenate myself before i get started with school and driving liscenes. yes, i can't wait to start my practicals, just hope that i can pass my BTT with only one attempt,Insyallah. 

pertaining about persuing my studies, like i have mentioned before, i leave up everything to God to decide whats best for me. i was told once that if you ever want to achieve your goals and dreams, never ever tell anyone about it, because most probably it won't happen, and i guess it was true,really true.thus, from now on, i will keep everyting to myself.

got to be going. movie marathon coming right up =)

i was blog hopping most of the time, but this particular blog really mesmerized me, i mean not her but her sister. one day, i really wish to pursue my studies and attain a cert in Bachelor of Early childhood. this is for real. i really hope to be going to overseas universities to attain my Bachelor. somehow, i recalled about my brother's friend who migrated to Aussie to further her studies, her alone. i mean how could she have enough courage to migrate to other country, leaving her family and friends behind. i just adore her so much. how i wish i could be like her. but the fact that frighten me the most is the time that is really after me. i mean, by the time i graduates from ITE, i would be at least 21 and if i can qualify to the 2nd year admission of poly, i would be at least 22, but look, what if i could only qualify for the 1st year admission? wouldn't  i be like 23-24 by the time i  graduates from poly. oh my, i would be so old by then. can i still pursue to attain my bachelor? if yes, when will i start to work? 3-4 years down the road? or i should rest for a few years  after attaining my dpt before i further my studies again? don't you think its about time leave everything and concentrate about settling down and have a family? haiyo, this is so stressing. but  on the brighter side, just look at my madam. she continued her studies despite her age,maybe in her late 30s. if she could, so could i right? but thats not how i want to run my life. if possible, i would like to study and work real hard, exploring the world before i got tied down. but i guess that won't be happening,looking at the clock that is ticking real fast. it scares me a lot. well, i guess, i' m just being to paranoid and worried about the unnecessries. i believe God knows whats best for me.

6 days more before speech days. 9 days more before school starts. what ever will be, will be. =)

my mom says that i' m torturing myself for i' ve been having this bengkong on around my stomach.haha. but, i don't feel tortured as all, its very shiookk ok.haha.sampai sesak nafas aku. who doesn't want to look good in dreeses right? haha.lol. i' m on diet, but i just had kfc last sunday and earlier today.haha.diet doesn't mean you go on without food rite,but mine i think its just too much lah. nothing to fret about, jogging tomorrow morning with this bengkong on. mesti gerek kan.haha.bye

yesterday, i went to suntec with dearie and ziemah, it was a last minute plan. thought of making my new specs there, but the fair was so merepek nak mampos with no nice designs,except for the expensive ones.lol.thus, i saved my money on the specs and went for a little shopping to find something nice for me to wear for speech day.aha. everything went fine, but i have got to leave early since the family is sending brother back to pasir labar. it was a short time spent with him and this will have to continue for another 6 months. i guess, we just have to learn living this way.

after like more than a month of not seeing him, he came last few days. it was huge relieved. glad he is doing fine after the op. =)

hmm, i need my money to do some shoppings for school shoes and new pair of specs, but dad have not returned back my money and i' m reluctant to ask him for the money back. thus, i have made up my mind to just buy a pair of jelly pumps and buy a new pair of specs.pegi skolah sengkek takpe, janji otak penuh dengan ilmu tao.

well, i was informed that mdm sal actually will be a lecturer in my school, taking my early childhood course too, so most likely i'll be able to see her often,or perhaps, she'll be my class adviser. i loike. =) oklah, i' ve got nothing more to update. dah, aku dah nak pengsan.

me: hmm,kasi na naek motor ngan mamam amy?
her: ok,bole lah.nnti teringat kenangan lame..hehe
me: ohh..a'ah ehh..
her: sape tu name budak tu?hmmm
me: {looking away}
her: ahh..si syed tu..
me: syed?? ah,betol lah tu..

lol..my aunt is very funny.syed mane pulak kan.haha. thought of going jb for some shopping, but because of some reason, got to call it off,blearghh..i need a new specs. vision fair this sunday??? cool..

gosh, i didn't know what to update about. i' m all blank. apparently, things are not going right lately. i' m somehow disturbed and preferred to be kept alone. now, i really need to change my sleeping habit before school will officially be commenced in like 2 weeks time. ok,seriously i don't know what should i type.

this is absurd! you think this is fair for me? if you think it is, then you better think again. what ever you said were all utter rubbish. please make yourself a stand, stop  loosing yourself blindly. i hate you for this.


please, let me go..

i' m invited for my ex-school this year's speech day for prize presentation. what else if its not for my malay right.haha. know what, ever since i started to eat rice, i feel very uncomfortable. i felt lighter without rice,seriously. my nutritionist friend, rassull, told me that if rice is not properly digested, it will turn into fats and thats why he has been bugging me to stop eating rice again. he is a real physco. a men weighing 56kg,he says that, thats too heavy already. wth. obviously, he doesn't know that i' m still struggling to maintain in the 60s range. hah. so, it means that, i really have to stop eating rice again starting off from tomorrow. not to forget, morning jog with ernie tomorrow. i mean, like what ernie said, we need to maintain out stamina for school,especially for pe lesson and nafa test; total shitness.

bye!

apparently,everything is starting to change, and i have got to adapt myself for the new atmosphere and environment. starting of from tomorrow, bro will be posted over to pasir labar camp to carry out his new duty as a combat; thats the post he have been waiting for.he will only be coming back home on weekends,just the same as when he used to be in tekong, and this will continue for 6 months! longer than his BMT days.grrr.i hate this feelings; INCOMPLETE & INSECURED.

now, i regretted to leave kids kingdom earlier. i should have quited a bit later,so as i don't have to stay at home and will have to start calling up my dad's clients for payments. it suck ok. i hate this job, i don't know how some people can survive doing admin works. i hate it. apart from all that, i enjoyed my weekends very much. on saturday, went over to sya's house and after which proceeded to cathay ang mo kio hub to watch Rule number 1. apparently, when we reached there, we were told that children below 16 are not allowed. worst, all my younger siblings were all so fucked up and they started to show attitude. haha.padan muke. you, i don't actually like to watch movies at cinemas, so thats why i don't really mind not getting to watch it. =)

somehow somewhat, i'm feeling very anxious and uncomfortable. the thought of school that is about to start soon, makes me weaker. i'm anticipated and at the same time, scared. scared of what might happen there, but in anyways, i can't escape. i have chosen this path and i will have to just go through it, no matter what happens. i will just have to bear with it for less than  2 years. i hope time will flies and i am sure it will. i've chosen ite because i wish to step into poly,one day. i really wish. if its not because of poly, i won't choose ite. for that, i think i should do something about if,to prove it to myself and others. off lately, mum has been discriminating and condemning my spirits and that hurts me very badly. she said i need to prove her wrong,and trust me, i WILL if thats what can make her proud of me.haiz. 2 years, please coom by soon,ok? i want people to see me wearing that graduation outfit, just like what bro had worn before when i graduates from Ngee Ann poly in Early childhood.Insyallah

last but not least,children,please spell this together with me, ok? ;
B for Bubble(s)
follow me lips........

love this!